i know i already posted today, but so much has happened since then. actually not much at all has happened since then. but what has, was worth posting about.

i dont think many people will read this blog, or comment on it, and i think i like it that way. so i can imagine that someone that doesnt know me will read it all the time and never comment. not in a freaky way, but just like a movie. that maybe my life and my thoughts can entertain someone. i think we like to think of our lives as important to people, and that everyone thinks of themselves as putting on a show for the rest of the world.

today after the game, i came back to my dorm, and i had kinda talked about watching a movie with some people, but you know what i did instead? i put on my pjs and watched 'love actually.' and i ate cookies and gizzled dr. pepper. and i dont know if this would have happened any other night, but i bawled my eyes out. but it was okay. it was a good cry. the good kind. i was happy. it reminded me that there is love out there. true love. and that if we settle for less, because we think we wont find it, then we'll miss out. and it also reminded me that sometimes you have to step back and look at whats right in front of you, and that these people you might actually love. and you cant let them get away. and even though i have no idea who i will fall in love with, it just comforted me. and i hope i remember that when i do think im in love. and that i give every guy a chance. because its whats inside that makes the man. i hope that God wants me to fall in love. i might not know you, but i hope that you can fall in love like that. i hope that one day you can be so happy that when you walk, you have to hold your breath or else your knees might give away beneath you. i hope that for you :)

somehow, school doesnt seem important after a night like this...