have you ever seen someone (a guy) and just known youre meant to know him? and that he could be such a stable character in your life? and that if you talked to him, you would be the person you want to be, without trying. and you know there is nothing wrong with him just by looking, even though they say you cant judge a book by its cover. but its not what he looks like, rather the way he looks. theres a difference. and it just says gentleman. and you know hes your type. to others, hes hansome, but to you, its a whole different feeling. and when you miss that opportunity and you dont get up and go talk to him, you might lose him forever. maybe im being dramatic, but i might have lost him forever. i feel silly talking this way. its really no big deal. but what if...

oscar wilde once said, "im not young enough to know everything." i feel like i know everything. i hope i always feel this way.

its nice to pick and choose what classes you want to take. to an extent we're limited, but we can learn about pretty much anything. in all my classes today and yesterday, i realized i want to know more on the subject. it felt so good to want to (actually) learn. i want to be fluent in spanish, and i think linguistics is really interesting and out of the ordinary. and history of the american economy blends history and economics just the right way and im loving it. and accounting is actually interesting to me, considering my new years resolution involving money and stuff. and walking, though it might seem wimpy, makes me feel like i did something active and i want to have a healthy lifestyle. all my teachers are great, knowledgeable, thorough, and LOUD! i think theres a little nerd in all of us.

i tend to walk fast everywhere i go. im not usually late, but i just have this need to get where im going, fast. and it bothers me when people walk super slow. i hope i at least look business-like and important when i walk briskly. like daysha. i dont particularly like her, but i think we are really really similar. i think if i didnt know me, i wouldnt like me. but anyways, she dresses amazingly and i love it. i like the idea of her, and i think i could like her, but shes like me and we dont make much effort to get to know people.

i have a wall of hott men on my wall. with special appearences by johnny rzeznik, josh holloway, channing tatum, zack effron, brad pitt, matthew mcconoughey, and many many more. i kid you not. holy cow they are steamy :)

i wish i played a musical instrument. especially the guitar, but any would be great. if i had a guitar, it would be dark cherry. i wont settle for the standard color everyone has. and i wish i could sing. life would then be a tiny bit better. and i could be all artsy and lay on the grass strumming my 6-string to whatever tune i wanted.

i have officially turned down two requests for fraternity formals. i feel bad i guess, but i love liz oh so much more. and i will visit her instead!

why do we identify people by their hair color. is that the most unique thing about us? or is it just the easiest thing to describe? ...so are we all essentially the same, or complicated? woah buddy!

i am sick and tired of adobe acobat professional. i just want to punch it. hard. makes me sick to my stomach to think of it. it is way too complicated for what it is supposed to do. and im tired of doing the recruitment guide. why on earth would you give that job to an office assistant? i mean seriously, i havent been trained for things like that. just because i made my desk all creative doesnt mean i am wonder woman of things requiring an aesthetic appearance.

college is wierd because some things are the same as before, and some things are different. seems like raising your hand to talk is elementary, but we still do it in small classes. i like that we can do what we want. we just have to do what they want us to do in order to succeed. which is what we want, right? to succeed? i wish we could just want to sleep until noon and be with friends all day and write or read or watch tv or facebook all day. then id have time for productive things. then id have time to succeed at being me.

its wierd. even though some people were your close friends in high school, sometimes they just dont feel like they belong in college with you. even if theyre changing too. they just make you feel young again, and you love being with them, but you want to feel different, collegeiate, new, fresh. and to other people they are new and exciting. but not to you. its wierd to think that the people you meet once knew other people, and to those people they are old and familiar and remind them of high school. but these are the people who are going to define college for you.