i must be a 90's child or something. i mean really, sister hazel, goo goo dolls, train, matchbox twenty, hootie and the blowfish, vertical horizon, nine days. they're all genius, they all evoke this same great feeling in my soul. they are me.

i just want school to disappear, and work too. then i could be lazy and not worry about stuff and focus on the important things in life. like boys and cars and music and fashion.

i hope i can fix this. for once, i'm not sure if i will be able to. this scares me very very very much. i'm used to getting my way, maybe i got in too deep this time, thought too highly of my manipulation abilities. i wish i weren't manipulative.

a few weeks ago, i found a song that perfectly described trent and me and our thought process and what we felt. it's called "breathe" and it's by taylor swift and colbie caillet. it captures everything perfectly. and listening to it now, after this, it takes on a whole new meaning, but still captures everything perfectly. incredible. i wish taylor knew how much i can relate to this song, in so many ways.