i feel like i need to define myself somewhere. and here seems like a good place to do that.

• im catholic. and i love it. thats why its at the top of my list. its my favorite part about myself.
• i dont use apostraphes or capital letters when writing outside of school or work. messes up the flow, if you ask me.
• i wish i read more books, because i know there are some good ones out there.
• i dont excercise. in fact, its one of my new years resolutions. along with eating right. because a lot of times, i feel unhealthy. and i really dont like that feeling.
• i sleep too much and too little at the same time. and i know its not good for me at all.
• i would rather spend money than save it. because to me, having a material posession is worth more than having money. but my dad taught me to save money and invest, and it excites me so much to know that after the first of the year i will be investing on my own. okay, with the help of my dad.
• im independent. and i accept it. im so picky about boys it scares me. and sometimes i think its a good thing, and other times it scares me a lot. im not sure if itll help me find the perfect guy for me, or leave me alone because ill convince myself no guy is good enough.
• the thing i want most in life is to always know that my family is safe, healthy and happy.
• maybe i watch too many chick flicks, but the thing i want most in life after my family's safety, etc, is to fall madly in love.
• i want to do something extraordinary for lots of people. like, live in a third world country and help the people and help the economy get back on its feet. and give people hope. or be someone that teens can look up to and know that they dont have to be promiscuous or rebellious to be liked, because i have all the friends i could need.
• i have this deep desire to be rich beyond all means.
• i want to write a book someday. im still not sure what itll be about. probably a romance novel that will never be published lol.
• i love football. college football. and i despise pro football. once they go pro, most players lose passion and it becomes all about the money and fame.
• i love summer and i hate winter.
• my favorite day of the year is my birthday. i always feel so different on my birthday, but i cant describe it.
• i love the goo goo dolls, and matchbox twenty, and train, and augustana, and boys like girls. and i love classics like the eagles, and john cougar mellencamp, and i even love shania twain. and i basically like anything else with a beat.
• i dont particularly like parties. i would rather hang out with a few friends than go to a party.
• i like to shop.
• as far as politics go, im not sure what i am. i think im somewhere between a libertarian and a conservatist. idk. but i wont vote based on that. and i also wont vote for hillary simply because shes a girl. when the time comes, ill do my research and make an educated vote. i dont like people who only vote because they can.
• i like that 70s show, friends, lost, greys, big shots, hills, project runway, americas next top model, and life of ryan. oh and i think tila should have picked dani, even though im straight.
• i like chick flicks and movies that make you think and have lots of action in them.
• my room is generally a mess with piles everywhere. but i always know whats in each pile.
• i like quotes.
• i dont cook anything past eggos and pbj sandwiches. by the way, i make the best pbj sandwiches no lie.
• i am lazy. i havent fully taken off the heart that was painted on the front windshield of my car in may.
• im going to go to ireland and get me a boy with an irish accent. you wait and see. im also going to britain and scotland for the same reason :)
• i like to snowski, wakeboard, tube, kayak, and most of all, take boat rides where i can sing and no one can hear me because of the wind.
• im occasionally self-conscious, and im not sure if it shows or not. but usually i suck it up and accept who i am, whether it be goofy, wierd, quirky, etc.
• i read magazines. one day i will work for a magazine and be the marketing director. i think my favorite magazine is glamour.
• i like taking pictures but i like looking at pictures more. and i like to scrapbook, but i have to be in the mood.
• id take greasy fries and a hamburger any day over a dinner at a nice expensive restaurant.
• i cant sing. at all. im tone deaf. and i wish soooo badly i could sing well.
• i have the best family in the world. i have the best friends in the world. the end.
• i dont have any enemies at the moment. and i have never met anyone i couldnt stand to be around.
• i think everyone is beautiful. i really do.
• my favorite color changes on a daily basis. today it is fuschia. yesterday it was lavender.
• my favorite foods are ice cream and popcorn. not together of course.
• i love uga and i will always be a bulldawg and i will always hate florida.
• i love having freshly shaven legs. im not kidding.
• nail polish is love.
• im not very good at making decisions. usually i really have no preference.
• i would rather hang out with a bunch of guys than meet a new girl. i already have the girls i need.
• i like the sun.
• i cant think of anything else.

so in a lot of ways, im just your average 18-about-to-be-19 year old girl. and in so many ways im not. and im okay with that. i look at my desires in life and what i want to become, and you cant place a stereotype on it because its so many things. and while i might turn out to be the opposite of what i want, or encompass all of one stereotype, its by accident. and ill know that i got there by following my heart and being myself. it will be pure coincidence. and my biggest hope for the world is that every single person out there wants things because their heart truly desires them, and not because someone that they want to be desires them. because thats how you end up average, when you cover up yourself in hopes of being someone else. you cant change who you are, so maybe we should all accept us as we are. maybe then, the world might become more colorful.

so right now im at work. and its kinda lonely. im looking out the window to see all these people in shorts and riding bicycles. i miss my bicycle. and i just want to run out there and escape. im not a fan of work right now. when i get this recruitment guide finished, ill be alright. and when this one guy stops throwing his used cigarrettes in my trash can, i think ill be better. but until then, friday please come. im going to be the only person on campus friday. and you think im kidding. there are how many, 35000 or so students here? yeah i havent met a single one that is staying until friday. stupid economics final.

but i think my daddy is coming tomorrow. he's closing on the condo and im really happy about that. and we might eat dinner. i hope i can find someone who wants to share a room with me. and i cant believe my daddy is making me pay him! i mean, seriously. i hope he's kidding. he doesnt seem like he is.

so i found some good music. go to itunes and search 'love song.' and listen to the first one that comes up. her name is sarah something. starts with a b. i forgot how to spell it. and its really good music. like really really good. its upbeat. kelly and i have study breaks where we listen to it, and it makes us feel better about studying. it helps so much. and then ive been listening to james morrison, and i think my dad would like his cd a lot for christmas. i really think he would because it is 'clean' without that produced sound and it has clear instruments and his voice is really good. and when i get it for him, ill offer to put it on his itunes, and then ill sneak it and put it on mine :) go listen to him too. those two will blow you away. i heard both of them from casey, go figure. she has really good taste in music.

im so ready to be home, but i think im going to miss athens. and i think there are some people i am really gonna miss too. but just the thought of going home and sleeping in my orange room and talking to my parents and laughing with my sister and teasing with my brother and kissing my doggy, and then hugging them a million times, that just seems amazing. athens will be here when i get back.

sometimes i wish we werent such a global country. that we didnt have these wars and didnt send troops to every country. because i rarely think about what we are doing outside the us, and when i do i feel bad because i should be a more attentive citizen. but its hard when it doesnt feel like it affects you. and when you live in this bubble in georgia. and when you dont watch the news...

i had more to say but i forgot what it was.

i like my life. a lot.

i bought a holiday nail polish color. its a reddish-hot-pink with sparkly stuff. it makes me feel warm and spicy inside :) and i bought gift bags in target and they are absolutely adorable! you have no idea really. and when i wrapped the ppresents and now im all glittery because they were sparkly! i dont know what it is, but this year i am so into the holidays and everyone being happy and cheerful and i love it! and i keep singing mariah carey's "all i want for christmas is you." its such a good song!!!

you need to go see august rush. and when i say need, i mean need. like, hurry to the movie theater now!!! jonathan rhys-meyers is basically a dream and keri russell is just gorgeous and freddie hightower is adorable. and the movie is so good you will be stunned and giggly and in love with it for days! and you think im exagerating. it just makes me want to pick up the guitar and play the strings off of it. and i want to buy a plane ticket to ireland and get myself an irish boy with an irish accent.

and now i am currently watching the victoria secret fashion show. love it!

so i realize this update wasnt written well and it wasnt insightful. but im too happy to be insightful!

finals make me want to sleep...